Life writing-poetry

The only beauty real in me now
shines from capacious clinquants
coo, coo and chatter, flirting from (my) extolling flatter

the moment where beam meets surface, hot and cold, paradox
beholding the interstice as it gleams, echoes, whispers, encaptures....


I, eye, behold diamonds in this moment

traffic travels. a sweet winter sussurous checks the clock, debates how long it will stay (cooling st. louis)

I, eye, behold diamonds in this moment

i let down the bucket, into the wellspring of
my soul
a wondrous world waltzes, wilts, wades, warns of collision

i, eye, behold diamonds in this moment

a diamond, a rock. sharp. treasure
effervescent and eternal

i, eye, behold, diamonds in this moment

i, eye, behold, but never hold such treasure, like the moment, wind, sun ray on water sparkle

ooh, ah, gone-- over, becoming, turning, over
made audible: tinkling high piano keys
or laughter, a bubbling creek, falling, feeling familiar soft stones

i, eye behold diamonds

di. meaning
more than one, split, intricate, fragmented, searching desperately

this moment: no more than tinkling, searching, flirting, bursting, hiding, resurface-flecting diamonds

enlightenment (quizas)
life: undulating lake waves unfathomable

beneath the chimerical glory of light, you, me, the us, the undulating pain and pleasure makes no sense
no categorizable, cognizant calculation

i, eye behold diamonds, in this moment


(and, too) the lapping sound of lunging lake water on stones
vicissitudes. interstice. stitching together pieces... frayed, chipped
(and,) facets, fascinated fully enraptured by

eternal (evolution) all of all
cosmos to caterpillar

water and sun diamond spiritual science
no, rather it is not either spiritual or science
simply the now
painful beautiful interconnectedness
-meaning, filling, holding (my) life, eyes transfixed


miasma uplifted
-- suffering stammers, screams
-- joy jumps, jests

i breathe. i hold this moment

a mosaic masterpiece behind me

vibrant, verdant

....the only action meant for this moment asks quietly for my life to be open

open as the eye beholds sun miracle upon the water (dull and cold)

dull and cold
hot and melting

--the waving, warned moments of collision
struggle for air, life beyond strife
the diamonds
another side of the facet
not so peeled back raw
but a living call
echoing like waves, like wind, like diamonds


i, eye behold diamonds

gleaming glory
flirty flurry
hasty turnover, indecisive
individually, collectively
as diamonds are one, two, one hundred, one thousand and beyond

understanding elements: sun and water
under extancy, from, because of experiences

mosaic of my life thus far



here,
a tear for humility
smiling with hope
a mandate for humanity
returning to dignity

here,
a bridge to stand under, to cross and meet
the way sun meets water

transmogrifying dull and cold into
genuine, ebullient, bubbling, humble, radiating treasure in the blink of an eye, a moment


i, eye behold the diamonds of this moment